Anonymous asked: I try my best not to show it but I hate my body so much and I'm always constantly thinking about what it is I'm going to eat and if it'll make me gain weight. I ended up developing an eating disorder and now if I eat too much I throw it up soon after. Only one person knows and now she's gone because of very stupid reasons. While this was happening I wasn't able to handle it very much so I made myself throw up to make myself feel better and now I'm trying to