Anonymous asked: ive had night terrors of being raped since i was a child and recently realized the dream is a REAL.memory. i cant get rid of the mental images that flash through my head everyday of car crashes while im driving on the road or me slitting my wrists while im cooking or me lowering my head under water and never coming up when im at the beach. theres no escape from myself or anything. i find little comfort in anything or anyone. its hard to exist, breathe, stop hurting. im a numb vacant shell. -B